It's 4am in the morning, God gives me a very quiet space to review my internal unresolved feeling:
1. why I am a bit troubled from the 8-year vs 1-year thing
- I care about people's recognition and I was not being recognized
- Disappoint about my company for not offering me the opportunity
- Obviously I was not doing good enough and I could do better in terms treating people and handling things
2. The positive side I learn from the instance
- I got room to further improve in terms of personal growth and dealing with people, not from the world's valuation, but from God's requirement for me to "Love'
- Something is better waiting form me ahead, and that's more suitable for me in God's sight and His valuation. It's definitely something gd for me to grow in him head, joyfully
- There is a gap between how I see myself and people seeing me; to play as a right servant no matter in company or church, I need to submit myself to people and demolish my self-centreness
This is a good chance and timing fro me to take a break and spend time to explore my new direction
3. God's encouragement and light in the middle of my prayer
- Phil 4:12 It is the same to me if I am looked down on or honoured; everywhere and in all things I have the secret of how to be full and how to go without food; how to have wealth and how to be in need. 4:13 I am able to do all things through him who gives me strength.
- 腓 4:12 我 知 道 怎 樣 處 卑 賤 、 也 知 道 怎 樣 處 豐 富 、 或 飽 足 、 或 飢 餓 、 或 有 餘 、 或 缺 乏 、 隨 事 隨 在 、 我 都 得 了 秘 訣 。4:13 我 靠 著 那 加 給 我 力 量 的 、 凡 事 都 能 作 。
4. Thanksgiving
- God, thank you for granting me your words when I am in need
- God, thanks for comforting me when I am weak
- God, thank you for letting me know the daily prayer and biblical time are important for me to getting You closer
- God, please let your words always be my backbone
- God, please let me have your wisdom to see things in Your way, not my way or people's way
- God, please fill me the spiritual food, and let me be full in You but not the food of corruption
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